Tuesday 15 December 2020

The flight that could be my last…

 


It was fine 2nd May 2019, Thursday morning but quite different from other days as I was going to catch the domestic flight in KSA, Dammam to Yanbu to meet my parents. I was going to travel alone within the Kingdom of Saudi Arabia.

The ticket is an already book from Flynas airlines. I was excited to explore my trip. All preparations for shopping to packing are complete, and I got ready before time. I performed my prayers, settled everything in the house for other family members so they would not feel any problem in my absence. Now I wanted to talk to all my close ones desperately before leaving the house and keep messaging them to share my excitement about my trip and to make wishes before traveling. 

I messaged one of a close friend to call me whenever she gets free. To tease me, she wrote that she had already given her best wishes yesterday and now she is not free enough. It disappointed me and I wrote her in my desperation that there are so many airlines that are stopping because of financial issues and crashing because of maintenance issues…. Still, are you sure that you don't want to talk to me before taking off? A very next moment I receive her call and she scold for talking such negative things. We talked for 5 minutes and I felt charged. Now, it was time to leave for the airport. 

On being Indian and spending so many years in this kingdom, I am so much comfortable with climate, atmosphere, people, language that it becomes a second home for me. I was damn excited and my mood was on cloud number nine, feeling like a bird that is setting her wings before flying.

I got dropped at the airport before an hour and after all formalities of check-in of airlines; they sent me for boarding.

I find welcoming crew members with afternoon wish they showed me my seat 14 D. At first glance of flight’s passengers’ I saw at my right-side one Saudi girl, her age seems around 17-18, a Philippine man around 25-30 at left side with distance, on back 4-5 Indian men in total flight seems going on official tour as they were in office’s uniform, a teenager girls group on school tour and rest are Saudi families with children. There is no familiar face at all. Still, I was feeling so happy to absorb this new traveling experience of mine. 

I settled my hand-baggage in the baggage-cabin and sit on my seat. After a formal announcement, aircraft moved towards the runway, I was trying to see outside as it's already 30 minutes and the flight is not taking off. After a few minutes they announced that there is some problem in the engine and they are checking it, they would take the flight off when everything would be fine, so they told passengers' to remain seated on their seats and keep patience during that. The airplane flies back to the airport and some checking by experts started.  

After an hour of restless, we were happy that aircraft is perfect now and we are going to take off in a few minutes. Everything seems normal till now. 

I informed my close ones by messaging about the takeoff before putting my mobile on flight mode. 

In a few minutes, we were in the air surrounded by beautiful white cotton-like clouds. It is so pleasant and calming moment, I slowly close my eyes to absorb that ecstasy and to relax in this two hours air journey.  

Suddenly, I heard screaming of people around me and opened my eyes. I saw crew members are rushing towards a few passengers, giving them water and requesting them to keep calm.

One air hostess is telling Philippine man seating my left side, to take breath properly and try to stay calm, girl next to me is praying by opening her palm. It is panic, anxiety and stressful atmosphere around me. Few were asking questions and few were going through panic attacks like breathing problems and screaming out of fear. Few started reciting Almighty’s name and Ayats, which is to recite before death. I realized that our aircraft is on a roller-coaster ride and nothing is normal inside.

A male air hostess started announcing to tie seat belts, remove shoes, remove sharp things around ourselves, close baggage-cabin, showing us all exits, and fold your body by keeping head down and hold neck by your hands from behind and be ready for a crash landing.

‘Crash landing’ the word bangs in my head…

I called to one of the air hostesses who seem gentle with everyone and rushing close to me; I saw her name on the batch Victoria.

I asked, ‘why our aircraft needs the crash landing?’

She said, there is some problem in engine because we can't fly further and so we came back to Dammam Airport where we had takeoff but because tires are not opening while trying to land so we have to go through crash landing, now keep your head down and hold your neck' She gave me instructions like a soldier on duty.

I looked at her surprise that life is equally important for her still she and other crew members are performing their duty instead of screaming to see death close to them.

The voice of the male air host is overpowering the atmosphere to tie for seat-beat, bend the body, head down, and hold the neck, I followed all instructions. Screaming of passengers is creating a horrifying atmosphere inside the aircraft, but I don't want to hug death in such a fearful way. 

Now my all family members, friends, people of my life started flashing in my mind and I bid goodbye to them silently from inside. And felt this is the time to join Almighty in a few minutes. I looked around fearful people and then outside the window by which I can see falling towards land. I prayed to my Almighty for forgiveness and started reciting slowly those words that are told to recite before death, and I become ready to surrender myself for my end chosen by my airlines.

Now all crew members went to their seats and tied their seatbelts, and that male air host is still shouting and instructing the passengers' to bend for their body, head down, and hold your neck. I give the last look to the outside the window where we are close to land.

Suddenly, we heard an announcement.

‘Dear passengers, please relax airplane’s tires are now open and we are ready for normal landing within a minute’. The announcement was pleasant to hear but not believable, as all passengers are still shouting and screaming in the same state of mind.

Flight became close to land and with a high sound of bang tires of flight had touched the land and now it is running on the runway.

Ah… I am still alive! I smiled with this thought and thanked Almighty for his kindness.

Now those who were screaming out of fear started clapping and thanking God and also congratulated each other for surviving from an accident.

The flight stopped, and I again started thinking about so many people in my life whom I love and I can meet again. I want to call everyone and to say thanks for your love and prayers that kept me safe and calm in the panic period.

Now it's time to get down from the flight and absorb all that shock by which we went through. It adds one more adventurous and hilarious chapter in my life's book, and I am happy that I am alive to narrate that.

Now few passengers wanted to go back instead of traveling again, few were demanding another aircraft for the same journey, but airlines make them waiting till their next announcement. I called all my loved ones to tell about my wellbeing. 

After 8 hours of waiting, the same aircraft is ready after fixing the software problem; almost 80% of passengers took their money back and went. I was a bit confused to travel again with that defective aircraft, I called my friend and asked, 'Should I go back home or travel further?'

‘No one dies before death, so don’t worry and go ahead,’ she said and laughed.

Her love and words gave me energy and boosted my confidence, I trusted Almighty and all those prayers which always travel with me so I stayed strong to travel by the same aircraft.

I saw the same crew members more gentle and humble and the few brave passengers who had flown again with the same aircraft, giving best wishes to each other.

This time I traveled safely and reached my destination with more joy, more love, more life and with more positivity for my loved ones, and more wisdom in my new life. I wish all a pleasant journey of life, be fearless, love and enjoy every bite of life. Stay blessed.




 

Wednesday 25 November 2020

हिसाब


 

 

वो बेनींद राते, वो बेचैन दिन, वो मायूसी, वो बिखरें ख़्वाबों का सिलसिला,

वो तुझे पाने की चाहतें, वो तेरे बिना जिये जाना बेदिली से, खुद की ही ज़िंदगी। वो हिसाब लगाया मैंने गुज़रे हुए लम्हों का, तो कहाँ जाओगे,

जो खोया है मैंने सब कुछ तुम्हे खोकर, क्या तुम वो लौटा पाओगे।

 

कहते हो के अब सही है सब, लौट आया हूँ ना तुम तक,

मेरी उम्र गुज़र जाने के बाद,वो सज़ा-सी कटी ज़िंदगी का क्या?

वो हिसाब लगाया मैंने गुज़रे हुए लम्हों का, तो कहाँ जाओगे,

जो खोया है मैंने सब कुछ तुम्हे खोकर, क्या तुम वो लौटा पाओगे।

 

फिलहाल की चाहतों और  दिल की राहतों के लिए ख़ुश हो भी लूँ,

हिज्र की तकलीफे और वो बेहिसाब बेचैनियां कभी भुला सकुंगी क्या?

वो हिसाब लगाया मैंने गुज़रे हुए लम्हों का, तो कहाँ जाओगे,

जो खोया है मैंने सब कुछ तुम्हे खोकर, क्या तुम वो लौटा पाओगे।

 

 

गुज़रे वक़्त की नाकामियों की ज़िम्मेदारी और मुझ पर इल्ज़ाम बहुत,

ये रिश्ता निभाने को तुमने क्या किया था? मेरे भी हैं सवाल बहुत, बहुत,वो हिसाब लगाया मैंने गुज़रे हुए लम्हों का, तो कहाँ जाओगे,

जो खोया है मैंने सब कुछ तुम्हे खोकर, क्या तुम वो लौटा पाओगे।

 

बेमक़सद, मायूस सी ज़िंदगी कट जाने पर कोई मिल भी जाए तो क्या,

मुर्दा दिल, जिन्दा जिस्म में कब कोई खवाइशे कहाँ साँस लिया करती हैं,वो हिसाब लगाया मैंने गुज़रे हुए लम्हों का, तो कहाँ जाओगे,

जो खोया है मैंने सब कुछ तुम्हे खोकर, क्या तुम वो लौटा पाओगे।




 


Wednesday 28 October 2020

वो जो मसरुफ है इस क़दर

 


वो जो जज़्बातों को ना समझे, दिलों के इकरार ना माने,

मेरे हर इंतेज़ार से बेख़बर, वो जो मसरुफ है इस क़दर।


वो जो तोले दिमाग़ से ही, वो ना जाने हाल-ए-दिल मेरा कभी,

तवाज़ो को कर दे नज़रंदाज़, वो जो मसरुफ है इस क़दर।


वो मेरा आहटों पर चौकना, वो हर मोड़ पर मुड़ कर देखना,

उससे ही ढूँढे मेरी ये नज़र, वो जो मसरुफ है इस क़दर।


तन्हाईयाँ गूँजती है, इस ज़ेहन से अब उम्मीदें भी हुईं बेअसर, 

 दुश्मन-ए-जान बन गया ये सफ़र, वो जो मसरुफ है इस क़दर।


मैं मजबूर हूँ दिल से और उसकी ज़माने-भर की मजबूरियाँ,

मोहब्बत की वो जो ना करे क़दर, वो जो मसरुफ है इस क़दर।




Monday 5 October 2020

एतराज़



मुझे एतराज़ है...

उनके ज़ुल्म करने सेसचाई छुपाने से

क़ातिलों के साथ हमदर्दी सेइंसानो को बाँट देने से


मुझे एतराज़ है...

नोजवानो में बेकारी और बेरोज़गारी बढ़ जाने से

बढ़ती महग़ाई सेबीमारों का इलाज मुश्किल हो जाने से,



मुझे एतराज़ है...

इबादतगाह तोड़ देने सेबस्तियाँ उजाड़ने से,

जानवर के नाम पर इंसानो को मार देने से,


मुझे एतराज़ है...

बेटियों को ना पढ़ाने वाली सोच सेउन्हें बोझ समझने सेउनके साथ हेवनित वाले सुलूक से,


मुझे एतराज़ है...

ग़रीब किसानो और मज़दूरों के हक़ दबाए जाने से,

कुर्सी की बिसातों सेसियासत के गंदे खेलों से


मुझे एतराज़ है...

और मेरा एतराज दर्ज किया जाएये कहना है मेरा हुक़्मरानो से,

मैं आवाज़ हूँमज़लूमो कीजो कुछ ना कह पाए किसी से....









Thursday 6 August 2020

हमें वो मलवा लौटा दो


मुमकिन है के वो सिर्फ एक मलवा या कूड़ा हो तुम्हारे लिए,

हमारे नसलों के लिए वो सबक़ हैवो निशानी है हमारी नाकामियाबी की,

हज़ारों टूटे दिल और आँखो से बहे अनगिनत आंसुओं की,

हमारे इंसाफ़ से टूटे यक़ीन और हालात से समझोते की।


मुमकिन है तुम अब ख़ुश हो बहुत और जशन मना रहे होंगे,

क्यूँ की यह जीत है तुम्हारे अहम और ज़िद की,

अब क़ानूनसत्ताअदालतें और अवाम भी तुम्हारी है,

मैं सवाल नहीं उठा रहीपर मायूसी बदस्तूर है।


तुम जब चाहोकिसी भी भीड़ को मुजरिम बना दो,

तुम जिसे चाहो भीड़ से पिटवा दोमरवा दो कोई भी जुर्म बता कर,

उम्रे गुज़र जायेगी मासूम की ख़ुद को बेगुनाह साबित करने में,

ख़बरें भी सब तुम्हारे मुताबिक़ ही होंगीक़त्ल होगा पर कोई क़ातिल नहीं।


मुमकिन है के तुम हँस दोइलतजा पर मेरी,

पर वो जो बेकार पड़ा मलवा हैउससे हमें लौटा दो,

इजाज़त नहीं तुम्हें के उसे किसी नापाक जगह फेंका जाए,

उसकी फिर तोहींन होवो मलवा नहीं जज़्बात हैं हमारे।


हमारा किसी के ईश्वर पर सवाल नहींना किसी की आस्था पर इतराज़ है,

तुम्हें हक़ है अपने ख़ुदा को मानो और पूजो शान से,

तुम ही तो कहते हो के ईश्वर कण-कण में रहते हैं,

ख़ुशी भी है के अब तुम्हारे ईश्वर हमारी इबादतगाह में पूजे जायगे।